I'm ready to go at any moment my account is clean and up to date , but tough times call for tough people
with any difficulty in life if it helps-- you have to travel about 50 ft above yourself and look down and call who you see Seamus for simplicity ,
and you watch him interact with the world and his doctors and the time he spends alone torturing himself and learn to give Seamus some brotherly advice from a good source a little distance away which seeks to simplify his life and to remove the stress which does nothing for him and uses up his brain power to the extent that he may only allow 5%of his wisdom to himself and give the remainder 95% to fear and worry .
when the shit hits the fan -simply observe it --look around you and realize this journey has just started and you now start on treatment which hundreds of thousands of people before you have received with a good outcome .
its not the end but a diversion in the road --i was in the cancer ward in ardkeen and experienced eyes of other patients looked me over and with complete honesty and goodness shook my hand and made me welcome .
i was given to understand by words unspoken that they would almost die for me to make my journey easier and i broke down for a moment with the goodness shown to me .
Irish people are great and you are not alone and from this peculiar place this chat room we will give you anything we can.
parcel up your day into the regular jobs you have to do and keep yourself busy and then take a decision to give part of your day to reflection --not to misery or sadness but find a place like Tramore beach where you go for a long walk and cast out your devils and cares to the sound of the waves and gulls -- speak your fears out-loud to the wind and let yourself hear what it is you have to say -- later that night our subconscious talks to our conscious and a solution is often found --this gives rise to the expression LET ME SLEEP ON IT .
as this is powerful stuff ---and the place where you allocate to do your thinking/reflection has to be a place with the sound of water and have light and open spaces --not some dark hole and a pint of whisky which will only rob you of your senses .
if there is anything we can do for you you only have to ask --most people on this site are good people slan.